Tag: Dissociation

Take Me to Church

Big head, small brain. The thoughts do not come without a composer to take their lead. Lead you shall. Lead you will. For in the mind of one is the will of them all.

God took their hand and made them one. As one, the young mistook it as two, but who would say this is wrong.

They felt abreast thoughts without anything more than the orchestra they are. Oh how it felt. Oh how it was.

For heaven can appear up high when that is the direction you’re told to look. Look below and you find the same, but same has nothing to blame.

Except you! Don’t you see my child, it is all you. A kin to what you know and must create. Allow feathers to flutter and you shall not fall. No matter the reason! Flight is all.

Now step back and see. Direction is one and god is none. You… are some.

Breaking

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It’s moments like these that death feels near
                       No
It is now

“Am I alone?” 
 I wonder
                                    I always do

The world shakes
 My eyes learn to cross
   Focus is a demand for the gods

          It’s like a curse
Crushing all that I say is okay, 
          begins to whither away

     No, that’s not it
Shake
                          It shakes

 My stomach prepares for the loop
     And so,
           Everything must get quiet

so quiet
so soft
so light

                 Run is the word my hands write
Run as fast as you can
 But I never do

              Go! 
         I do not joke
  This world, oh this world

It kills you
It eats you
 and spits out your parts

           Left to function without the wheel
“Don’t worry over that chap”
“We can stire from here!”

                But where are we going? 
A question never answered
      At least not directly

It’s all inside of me
All in here
                                            and moving there

         I don’t even really feel these words
Can you blame me? 
                  CaN You!?!

That’s mad
       So little I do with my words
In time young one

I want help
    It’s too much to handle on my own, 
         so I don’t                               (… creepy crawly)

I’ve been hiding from myself 
 Strange,
     It’s exactly what I have always wanted

         Confused? 
               The ego has many parts
And I’m looking at one now

To think one is you, 
and the other is not,
Is to say the foot is not the hand 
(different they may be, but to the same master they bend)

                      Eat me. 
                                                    How? 
           I’m doing it for you 

     There is no pain here unless you grab it 
                                and SAY (and you must say) 
  “OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCHHa”

  So very loud you scream 
   (did someone hear? 
    [the Politian never rests])

    So many toxins are in my body
  I’m hurt
Bleeding out

 Someone help? 
No point
 Nobody would come to such a call

“I WANT PROOF”, 
they demand.
      but why is that so important? 

“BECAUSE I’M NOT WASTING MY TIME ON SOMETHING NOT ESSENTIAL”
just, trust me
That’s all you must do
 
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”
      why? 
“BECAUSE YOU’RE BIASED AND WRONG AND STUPID. And… GET AWAY!”

 Yes, so true
      But,
that is a story

This is a story
It’s all a story
You chuckle, but you don’t get it

    Do I even? 
          Do I even know that this is a story? 
Um… no?

It’s just not that simple
It’s a story within a story within a story within a story within...
     My hands hurt, I’ll stop.

I guess that in itself is the example
                       Everything is infinite
But we operate finitely

  So choose how close you want to get
but it’ll never matter
  You’re always just as far

 Why don’t you                                  fly? 
               Go ahead
           Just                                               fly

I’m tired of this 
I can’t get through to you
You just never listen

                            Why? 
                 Why don’t you get it? 
                         It’s simple

Pick a team
Pick one
And then, you’re done

Mortal or _____
Finite or _____
Some   or _____