Category: Pilot

This Category contains my very first post.  This a rather long post that touches on many topics that are further explained in other posts.  I hope you enjoy!

My Hundredth Post!

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Wow, my hundredth post. Like… wow. It’s insane for me to realize that I’ve been writing on this blog for nearly two years now. And in that time I’ve written a hundred posts! Like what? How? It’s just insane! The whole thing truly is. And I sure do love it. 

I’ve spent this last week rereading my old posts and editing them up a bit… yeah, a lot of spelling mistakes, oops. First off, damn was I certain about my views in the beginning. So for any of you early readers, thank you for putting up with my arrogance. 

It’s funny to look back at it because I can fully understand why I came off the way I did. You see two years ago I had my first revolutionary conclusions on the world. For the first time, I had a complete understanding of society, individuals, people, you name it. It was perfect in my mind. Therefore, I knew it was a matter of opinion, but I simply only saw my opinion and no logic could break it so I figured what else could there be. 

The learning curve I was missing was that there is much more than just logic in this world. Yes, a logical conclusion is ideal, but at the root of all logic lies an assumption. And that my friend is what I was missing. An assumption is at the heart of everything we define as absolute, and it wasn’t until my next wave of assumptions came in that I saw more realities emerge. 

From what I’ve read, this is a natural part of essentially growing up. The process of realizing that your perspective is only one, of which is no more or less biased than any other. And so, truth is not found with building up our assumptions and perspectives to logical heights, but to instead maximize the assumptions and perspectives we have considered in our life. Because it is only at the root of thought that we can begin to see the truth. Haha, or maybe that’s another biased opinion. 😉 

The second thing I noticed with going through my old posts is that I used to be so much more serious. Geez, was I on a mission or what? Of course I still look to add helpful knowledge and understanding into the lives of my readers, but wow did I do it in a different way than now. I had direct messages. Direct ideas and views that I intended to address and call into question with each post. In other words, my driving force was to create change in the way that I thought was best, not just change for the sake of change. 

Now, I suppose I like to write in a looser feel. Besides it being more fun for me, I also hope you as the reader find it more enjoyable. Not just that, but I think this ties with the arrogant old self as well. I have always wanted you to feel and/or be a little better (notice the subjective word choice) with every blog post you read from this site. I used to think that had to be done in a certain way, but now I acknowledge that it’s more complicated than that. It’s unique to each reader. Therefore, I can’t just use the one size fits all model. I have instead resorted to looseness in my posts so that it is more about the message you take from these posts, rather than the message I intended for you to take. 

Rolling to my third reflection, I have my views, views that I think could help so many people, but that doesn’t mean they will. Something that took me a while to recognize is that truth is not our driving principle. As a species, I don’t believe that we strive to find the things that are most true. Some of us do, most of us think we do, but for the most part, we do not. I feel that our driving principle is instead to find the things that make us comfortable. The things that reinforce our realities, rather than destroy them.

And that was the awkward part for me. Because I made the blog thinking I would really turn some heads. I didn’t think I knew everything (or maybe I did think that and I just didn’t want to believe it), but I thought I knew enough. Enough to shed light on a subject that others were not. And with that glimmer of a light shown, I assumed that would be enough to get the reader thinking on their own. That the kick start is all that would be needed for them to then consider it and let me know their thoughts. And together, because that truly is the reason I made these posts public in the first place, we could get to the next step. Together we could consider what neither of us would have on our own.

But that’s not what happened. Instead, there was a silence. And not only did that make me sad, but it confused me for some time. I just didn’t get it. Even if everything I was saying was wrong, just say so. Reach out, break my logic or prove there are other assumptions, something, anything. Yet rarely anything happened. As I said, a silence.

So, what are my wise words? What masterful insight have I gathered from these one hundred posts? Well, I’d say that it’s okay. It’s okay if things don’t go as you planned. And it’s okay if the unexpected eventually becomes expected. 

It’s all so confusing you know? Ha, that might be why I love it so much, I don’t know 🙂

There’s my insight. Just smile. Lately, I’ve been ending a lot of my posts with a smile. Why? Well, because there is nothing more perfect than that. From what I’ve gathered, people will listen when they want, and they won’t when they don’t. People will understand you when they want, and they won’t when they don’t. And of course myself not being exempt, we are humans that create our own reality. We define the is and the is not. So to think that I can show you something that you don’t want to see, or tell you a view that you have no intention of listening to, is complete stupidity on my part. Therefore, it’s not about the ideas I have to share, but instead the feels. The experiences and moments. 

You see, it’s different because a feeling is something that can be shared, while an idea is given. I can’t give you anything that you don’t want, so there’s no need to try. Instead, I have a feeling that I want to share. Mutually felt. And that’s the warmth of a smile. A smile of support. A smile of gratitude. And a smile as a reminder that it’s okay and it always will be. 

So yeah, my message then is a smile. This may sound crazy, for insanity is genius without an audience, but nonetheless, my message is a smile. Maybe a thumbs up too, why not? I hope this blog helps or has helped you. But if it hasn’t, that’s okay, nobody is doing anything wrong, we’re just different.

I’ll keep writing, for now, but I just simply wanted to do a nice little recap. I’ve also made a new category of blog posts that you can find through the link or to the right of this post via the dropbox labeled “favorites”. There I have my ten favorite posts ever written. So, I hope you enjoy that and feel free to contact me with any questions, concerns, issues, solutions, or anything else you may have. 

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And as for my promised final message, I present to you a world famous selfie with a thumbs-up:

I hope you have a good day 🙂

Why I Blog

Ever since starting this blog, I have been asked the question, “what is your blog about?”, “why do you do it?”, and sometimes “Who are you trying to impress?”. Initially, I didn’t have words for such a question. Only a feeling.

Almost daily this feeling returns. It returns when I feel the defeated eyes of such a powerful person. When I feel the guilt a good person feels for their actions. And when I feel uncertainty manically confuse such a confident person. I feel what these people feel, yet I see more than what they see.

I see a person insecure about her looks when she is in fact gorgeous. I see a person hating himself for being cruel when he is in fact considerate. And I see a person fearing his path, when in fact he is courageous. These people can not see the light within them because of the people who told them to bury it. So I suppose my blog is about telling them to dig it back up.

This feeling is more like a need. An obligation to show these people that it is okay to question the things we were told not to question. To be the way we want to be, not how we should be.

Now you are probably wondering who these people are. Whether you are included in this slightly odd explanation of why I decide to sit in a quiet room and write some days. Well in truth, I believe we are all included. Some of us more than others, but all nonetheless.

You may be seeing a trend at this point in my writings. It seems I try to always include everyone in these hypothetical problems that our current society faces every day. The truth is I do, but not intentionally.

The second reason I found the nerve to create this blog is to explain how we are all together on our daily issues. I have noticed that many people have the tendency to point their finger at the individual sitting next to them and say, “at least I am not as fucked up as that kid.” And this, without going into great detail, just makes me sad.

Now once again you are wondering if this includes yourself. Well, I do not know who is reading this post, but with the same confidence as the answer before, I can say you probably are. In such a high demanding world, with so many unquestioned traditions, it is no wonder we try to diminish our problems in comparison to others.

And just as we the lack of confidence to be who we want to be, I see an equally troubling problem of our nature to push our issues to the side. There is this damning mindset that finding a therapist is being weak. There is this counter-intuitive way of thinking that one should only open up to the people closest to them, yet the way to be close to someone is by letting them see you for who you truly are.

In this intense world, it may seem that waiting to deal with yourself is the only possibility, but I can ensure you that this is the very opposite way to think. To live in this world you need to be confident, ambitious, and determined. Not just in your career, but in life. 

It is true that you can probably get by as bookworm who never stepped outside your dorm room until you got your engineering diploma, but what does that actually do. It gets you a job, probably, and then a life of never really knowing what other options were laid out for you. 

I am all about learning and retaining knowledge, but I believe that is step two in life. Step one is to learn about yourself, then you are ready to learn about the world. I believe living life the other way around leads to disappointment and a lack of fulfillment. And that is the last thing I want anyone to feel on their deathbed.

What is my blog about? I hope it is how to live a better life. I hope it is how to be the best version of yourself. And I hope it leads to an open mind. I also hope it informs you about ideas that are rarely talked about. But most of all, I hope it helps you.

This blog is whatever you need it to be. As long as it is making you think in a constructive way that will lead you to a brighter future, I have done my job. I have then created the blog I hoped to make. I have then convinced you to hold the light you once buried so deeply.