Ever since starting this blog, I have been asked the question, “what is your blog about?”, “why do you do it?”, and sometimes “Who are you trying to impress?”. Initially, I didn’t have words for such a question. Only a feeling.
Almost daily this feeling returns. It returns when I feel the defeated eyes of such a powerful person. When I feel the guilt a good person feels for their actions. And when I feel uncertainty manically confuse such a confident person. I feel what these people feel, yet I see more than what they see.
I see a person insecure about her looks when she is in fact gorgeous. I see a person hating himself for being cruel when he is in fact considerate. And I see a person fearing his path, when in fact he is courageous. These people can not see the light within them because of the people who told them to bury it. So I suppose my blog is about telling them to dig it back up.
This feeling is more like a need. An obligation to show these people that it is okay to question the things we were told not to question. To be the way we want to be, not how we should be.
Now you are probably wondering who these people are. Whether you are included in this slightly odd explanation of why I decide to sit in a quiet room and write some days. Well in truth, I believe we are all included. Some of us more than others, but all nonetheless.
You may be seeing a trend at this point in my writings. It seems I try to always include everyone in these hypothetical problems that our current society faces every day. The truth is I do, but not intentionally.
The second reason I found the nerve to create this blog is to explain how we are all together on our daily issues. I have noticed that many people have the tendency to point their finger at the individual sitting next to them and say, “at least I am not as fucked up as that kid.” And this, without going into great detail, just makes me sad.
Now once again you are wondering if this includes yourself. Well, I do not know who is reading this post, but with the same confidence as the answer before, I can say you probably are. In such a high demanding world, with so many unquestioned traditions, it is no wonder we try to diminish our problems in comparison to others.
And just as we the lack of confidence to be who we want to be, I see an equally troubling problem of our nature to push our issues to the side. There is this damning mindset that finding a therapist is being weak. There is this counter-intuitive way of thinking that one should only open up to the people closest to them, yet the way to be close to someone is by letting them see you for who you truly are.
In this intense world, it may seem that waiting to deal with yourself is the only possibility, but I can ensure you that this is the very opposite way to think. To live in this world you need to be confident, ambitious, and determined. Not just in your career, but in life.
It is true that you can probably get by as bookworm who never stepped outside your dorm room until you got your engineering diploma, but what does that actually do. It gets you a job, probably, and then a life of never really knowing what other options were laid out for you.
I am all about learning and retaining knowledge, but I believe that is step two in life. Step one is to learn about yourself, then you are ready to learn about the world. I believe living life the other way around leads to disappointment and a lack of fulfillment. And that is the last thing I want anyone to feel on their deathbed.
What is my blog about? I hope it is how to live a better life. I hope it is how to be the best version of yourself. And I hope it leads to an open mind. I also hope it informs you about ideas that are rarely talked about. But most of all, I hope it helps you.
This blog is whatever you need it to be. As long as it is making you think in a constructive way that will lead you to a brighter future, I have done my job. I have then created the blog I hoped to make. I have then convinced you to hold the light you once buried so deeply.