melting thoughts
memory vomit
moments never felt
conversations forgotten
pounding
at my ear
clouding me
from seeing clear
Stop! I command
seconds pass
the talking stick
is ripped from my hand
hear,
I pray
see,
I say
but listen
I do
and look
only at you
I’m cold
there’s a start
my hands are numb
I feel my heart
bursting out my chest
subtle mania
fills the air
I must beware
who is to blame,
for their foul stench
kids not knowing how to play
torment me in obnoxious ways
scared to look up
and meet their gaze
I wonder now
if this too
is a memory
I will replay
