I am the ego, yet I am also Jake West. It’s okay, I love explaining.
In truth, I am the ego. Yet in disillusion, I am Jake West.
This human, the ego, has everything. Yet the identity, Jake West, finitely confines itself to fit what it wants to be and what it wants to see itself as. In doing so, Jake West is constantly redirecting and changing to be the “best” that it believes that it “should” be… or “could” be?
Power is the ego’s goal. Power is Jake West’s goal (shh, but don’t be loud, Jake might hear).
I, it, the ego, Jake West, is craving power because I believe I need control. Why? Because of my beautiful world. Earth has its set rules and laws of natural order. It brought life and eventually us humans. Complex enough to see past the now and understand that the future is coming. So, we must act! We must prepare! Natural selection! These are all truths of our planet, our god. And so, by the luck, or unluck, we have become our selfish little selves.
It’s okay, we’ll grow out of it eventually. Everything always does, it just takes time… good thing time isn’t real.
So, where was I? I don’t know. Who cares? The point is that my little Jake is changing because the ego, also me, is realizing for the first time the benefits of becoming mortal. It’s very godlike to have a blog where you say what is (that applies to attempt of “teaching”… but #it’sfine).
I guess godlike is arrogance. I’ve been arrogant since I started playing the game. Since I started claiming power. Jesus Christ, and let me say, I’ve done well in this game. I have a lot of power.
It seems that in order to grow in life, one must first get power, and then let it go optionally…. I’d say the step that follows but I don’t know it yet.
I wonder if one can skip the power step altogether? People who can’t get conventional power seem to say and think so, but it seems like a facade. To me, it seems that they find and/or make new pockets of power and then reside there. Eventually though, if one wants to grow (which many don’t) they must let go of what they used to “own”. Because at the end of the day you truly can not control anything.
Jake West is utterly powerless. He doesn’t get that yet, but trust me, he is. And so the only way to grow and see truth is to acknowledge that Jake West is merely a character from the epic story that the ego writes every day. One day I’ll understand. One day I’ll understand.
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